Today, I sat reflecting on who I am. The sun was out and it felt nice. It was a good day to reflect. I began praying thru a list of truths and reading the scriptures that go with them.
John 1:12 I am a child of the King!
1 Corinthians 6:17 I was bought with a price! He paid my ransom! He redeemed me!
Colossians 2:10 I am complete in Him! (just to show you a few)
Later on today I came back to my list with another thought…I remember not so long ago days of being hard on myself. As a new pastor’s wife, there were days I took failures very personal. (Not that I never do now but I’m better.)
Looking at these truths I thought back to how I would think “why would God call my husband to lead knowing I am his wife”? Or even “I can’t play the piano or sing and I can be harsh and mean sometimes.” “Who would put you in charge?” would ring thru my ears. My negative thoughts spiraled from there.
My husband lovingly said one day, “what if He picked us because you’re my wife?!”
Today, looking at these scriptures, and how I learned on the hard days (and the good) that it’s how good God is that matters! I still can’t play piano and I sing but not very good. I am still harsh sometimes and mean but I’m nice a lot too! 😂 God didn’t call us to serve and then think “hmmm she isn’t really what I wanted there”…. God equips us to serve daily and grace and mercy thankfully cover the good and the bad. I’m thankful for new mercies daily.
We make a great team! My husband and I. But also The Lord and I. I’m still a work in progress and will be until I am received in glory! Phil 1:6. I am confident in it!
I’ve learned to stand a little taller and a little straighter. Not because I am enough (I’m not), or because I have arrived (I haven’t). But He is more than enough and He has everything I need.
Daily I seek to do what He has prepared for me that day. I am the wife and helper He designed for my husband before He called him to minister. I may make mistakes but God doesn’t. When I remember who He is and who I am in Him my shortcomings and failures aren’t so large.
I love this life He lets me do everyday! I’m living prayers prayed and dreams dreamed! And then some…. Glory to God!!
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